Worried!

So I've been thinking about starting a blog for a while now! I just wasn't sure what to write about, or if people would actually read it :-) the answers to these questions have finally been answered(in my head) 1. I'm about to embark on this amazing new adventure called motherhood  so why wouldn't I write about that(not to mention one day I can look back and remember how it was in the beginning) 2. I'm pretty sure I have a few friends that will read what I have to say...and if I don't who cares because it's an outlet for me to get things I think about off my chest! 

Since I'm not too sure what writing a blog is all about I'm not sure where to begin?!? Does my first entry tell you about me and my hubby and the new adventure that's gonna arrive in our lives in about 5 months? Do I tell our love story(or is that done too much?) I have all these questions and no answers! 

So I decided to just share what's on my mind which is....

How can I possibly love this baby that's growing inside of me so much already? I don't know if it's a boy or a girl. I haven't even felt it move yet! Everyone tells you that there's nothing in the world that compares to a mothers love...well I'd have to agree now!!! 

When I heard BB's heart beat for the first time it brought tears to my eyes! Not just because it one of the most amazing things I have ever heard , but because the look on my husbands face was the most beautiful thing I have seen! He just sat there and smiled...and I know he was thinking " Holy crap we're having a baby" but at the same time you can see all over his face that it's also the most amazing thing he has ever heard! And, maybe a little relief their was only one baby in there (yes there's a chance it could have been twins lol)

With all that gooey stuff out of the way here's what really on my mind. I worry so much about this baby already, AND IT'S IN MY BELLY! What am I gonna do when it's out in the world lol?!?!

Here's why I worry about so far 

1. Is BB still in there? Not that i have any reason to think otherwise because I haven't cramped, or bled, or any of the symptoms to indicate that BB is gone. But I hate going so long in between doctors visit to hear BB's heart beat! I'm sure this will change once I can feel the kicks and punches! 

I made it seem like I have more than one worry, but really the above is all I think about! 

Anyway, I hope I didn't scare anyone that's not a mom yet...and I'm sure all my mommy friends are reading this and laughing at me :-) If anyone is reading this at all

xoxo
Sara